A Moment For The Page
A thought process as a writer/creator
Love or hate, you’re staring at a blank page.
No way to get out of this space, couldn’t do what you wanted to do.
I know it was hard; it wasn’t easy to realize your constraints in this life.
Yet, you’ll soon notice you have a choice, but it’s too heavy to let go of habits and routines.
Until one day you let your words go, your mind go, your beliefs go, and you go feed yourself with the challenges you’ve been thinking about.
The fear of messing it up.
The willingness to clean it up when you make mistakes.
The desire is there, or was there.
Do you still got it in you?
Recently I’ve started to notice that I’m stuck, not in a way that most would think.
But stuck to go do and learn something new.
Am I getting old or lazy to process and explore more information?
Yes, I have a day job, yet I know that’s not my limitation; time is an issue, but I know I can still do something in this day and age.
Money is the first driving factor for most things as an average wage earner.
Technology is booming, yet my basic knowledge of it is at the bare minimum.
I know there has to be something I can do while I have a few hours a day to work on it.
I really don’t want it to be writing or writing for income, as the models out there are just not that suitable with my interest.
Now, this comes back to the question of whether you want to do what you love and make money from it.
And then it comes to a job of some kind, with over time a chase for conversion rate rather than do or write what you want anymore.
This is a hard question for me; however, I can imagine separating those 2 ideas. Yet, maybe anonymously, but then that does not help me build something sustainable, like a brand of some kind.
But then I thought, it’s harder than I think for the most part; maybe that’s what I’m afraid of, not getting the result I anticipated.
So I stopped there. And still is.
Most of the time, sharing thoughts and feelings is enough for me, yet the market and algorithms demand a lot more.
It’s like a well-packaged product, an article, or any kind of digital product.
Relevancy matters with the change in the industry or platform; digital products can be outdated the moment it comes out.
That’s why articles are still very relevant, especially when you put in some stone-cold research or personal take on ideas and practices.
Sometimes, I ask myself, “What exactly do I have to offer to the market”?
Most of the time, I couldn’t give a valuable answer.
Do I have to go for what’s trending, since that’s where most of the current money is?
How much do I have to learn and change with my current skill set to survive or thrive in this game?
The best thing that writing for a while brought me is that I can write out my thoughts freely as much as I want without much friction.
Mainly without scratching my head for clues about what words or what I should write about.
As long as I’m thinking, I’m writing; it happens simultaneously, without me knowing or pushing too much.
Good thing my hands can still keep up with my thoughts and translate them into words and sentences at the same time without losing too much of the original meaning.
Now I thought, if I’m just writing for the sake of writing.
Maybe as I write some more, I’ll know what I should do next.
Thanks for Reading
This story was originally published on [Medium] and is cross-posted here for a wider audience.