I Forgot You

But I still remember your writing

I never would have thought of reading or writing would be a part of my midlife. With no more random Youtube videos or listening to some random podcast.

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This is my way of life now.

Weekdays: wake up, go to work, come back, stay around midnight with family until they all go to bed. (weekend is a full-on good housekeeping schedule)

Then, with the limited time and energy I have, I browse a bit for any latest animated fantasy cartoon series that I have been chasing. Of course, the first thing I do when I’m on my laptop is come here and look around for things to do.

Okay, whenever I feel sleepy, I come and refresh the page; other than that, I try to write something each night. I generally try to finish it because that’s how I flow with each story.

It does take 5–8 minutes to get into that moment where I left off, if it happens to be complete between 2 days.

That’s enough time for me to put out as much output on a new story if I hit the flow off the bat.

Whenever I read something that I wrote again, I used to be afriad of going in and adding parts in random places, as it always felt like the newer me could run too far from the original idea.

Every section for me is a new me, trying to figure out what and why I wrote what I wrote.

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I was never a reader or writer of any kind.

I was just a thinker, or I thought I was, but it turns out I still remember my first article. I actually thought I was onto something until I hit publish and probably a few people read it.

It was actually exciting as a new person sharing ideas that I thought were useful, yet of course it was more about the human connection part that makes it meaningful as a new writer on the internet.

To me, it really felt like selling an unwanted item at home on the internet for the first time. Technically, I was selling my insight/idea to the platform in return for attention or some kind of value over time.

However, the reason for anyone to start writing online could be very different. I understand that background and interest play a big role in this, and I start to forget what I’m writing about sometimes.

But my writing still remembers me.
Or your writing still remembers you.

I guess this could be a lifelong skill, yet it may not always be used to profit or to have an immediate impact.

It requires a lot of trial and error, like the science of art in you.

There are more ways to say something, but at the end of the day, it really boils down to you giving a final thought of where you left off the sentence before.

I start to understand how a fiction writer can just keep going, and many turn them into animated fantasy cartoon series.

Some of them started half a decade ago and still keep coming out with new series. What is fascinating is always the story and character build-up that holds attention and meaning of value to be read or watched.

It’s an odd feeling like:

I Forgot You
But I still remember your writing

Thanks for Reading

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This story was originally published on [Medium] and is cross-posted here for a wider audience.